QuoteReplyTopic: Feeling jittery, could use some good wishes.... Posted: Jan 02 2012 at 12:20pm
Been going through some testing and I can't lie, I'm getting a bit apprehensive (a bit, ha!). It began last June at my annual gyno appt. Have had large fibroids on my uterus since my forties which were always checked on yearly, never any symptoms, so a hysterectomy was never recommended. This year she decided, since it had been five years since my last hospital sonargram and transvaginal (she did her own on each of my visits, but wanted everything checked again and sized on the big hospital machine), that I should have it done by the Womens Center. It found that I had a minimal amount of fluid in my pelvis, and they thought a fibroid had grown a bit. Then I had a pelvic MRI which assured that the fibroid did not grow at all, but that I had a tarlov cyst in caudal area and a mild amount of fluid in pelvis. Suggested another sonar and transvaginal in 3 months. Had the second one in September. No problems other than mild amount of fluid in pelvis, another sonar and TV at end of year. Just had it done last week and now shows that there appeared to be a left adnexal cystic mass and small amount of fluid in pelvis. She had all the reports reread by her favorite interventional radiologist, who suggested another MRI as the left adnexal mass was not there on last MRI, but he didn't feel it was a "cystic mass" at all.
Had the MRI on this past Friday afternoon with Dr. Levy, my gyno's friend standing by to read it (how's that for service!) - and he said there is definitely no mass. There is a small pocket of fluid in the left adnexal mass that he is not concerned about at all. However the free fluid in my pelvis is a little bit more than last MRI, so he suggests just watching it and doing another sonargram and TV in six months. My gyno wants me to come in this week so that she can do a CA-125 blood test on me, since it will be the first I have ever had. My onc only does the CA 27-29 on me each visit. She is also - just as a back up as she doesn't want to waste any more time, should this prove to be a problem, is going to e-mail her friend - a gyno onc, to see if he suggests anything further. I can't imagine a gyno onc looking at an almost 65 yr. old's MRI with small amount of free fluid in her pelvis, saying - oh, nothing needs to be done! So - there you have it - and I'm scared. This will be my first real scare since diagnose - and I don't feel any more brave almost three years later than I did at the beginning of this journey.
Sorry this is so long, but just needed to get it out to all my friends here, as I know each of you will understand only too well where my thoughts are going. My family, as much as I love them all dearly, only want to think I have nothing to worry about, and that all is fine. I wish it was that easy, but they will never see it any other way. I'm told, basically, don't make problems where there are none. Yeah, sure - duh!
Anyway, I feel better already just knowing that those that may read this, understand, and are wishing me good luck! I'll post as I find out more.
Love,
Linda
Edited by LRM216 - Jan 02 2012 at 12:23pm
Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg
4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33
Linda, I can certainly understand that you anxious about these developments. My prayer is that God will give you a peace and calm about it all until you hear more about the results of the tests.
I am going through something similar. Had my 6-month check-up with my onc the middle of Dec. and she said everything looked good. Then last week they called and asked me to come in for more blood work but didn't say why. Hopefully I will find out this week what the latest blood work shows. I'm really not too concerned - my onc is extremely cautious - I may just be a little anemic or something.
Anyway, I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
Love, Genie
DX 3/10/08 at age 67, IDC. Stage 1, Grade 3, 1.5 cm. KI-67 99% at MX . Bilateral mastectomy 4/1/08 Node-, BRCA 1/2-,BARD1+, TX:Cytoxan/Taxotere x4,3 in family with TNBC
Have 2 responses:
Objective response.
Based on:
"Had the MRI on this past Friday afternoon with Dr. Levy, my gyno's friend standing by to read it (how's that for service!) - and he said there is definitely no mass. There is a small pocket of fluid in the left adnexal mass that he is not concerned about at all. However the free fluid in my pelvis is a little bit more than last MRI, so he suggests just watching it and doing another sonargram and TV in six months."
Based on this, seems very, very little to be concerned about objectively.
Subjective response:
With any situation that has the slightest possibility for being a problem, I and think most any one
with a history of cancer would be concerned. Guess instead of the usual......give the cough or
muscle pain 2 weeks.....this will take a 6 month sonagram to confim all is well.
Think with what Dr. Levy said I would try (easier said then done) to concentrate on there is
no hard evidence of a problem ( and of course, whatever your MD says).
Regarding the CA-125 test.
Am sure you know this test result can sometimes raise concerns when there are none.
From http://www.medicinenet.com/ca_125/page2.htm For general info about the test.
Is CA 125 testing useful as a cancer screening test?
Although CA 125 is a useful test in monitoring women who are being treated for ovarian cancer, a single CA 125 test is not considered to be a useful screening test for cancer. Some women with ovarian cancer (up to 20%) never have elevated CA 125 levels, while most women who do have elevated CA 125 levels do not have cancer. In fact, because CA 125 can be elevated in so many non-cancerous conditions, only about 3% of women with elevated CA 125 levels have ovarian cancer.
REFERENCE:
Hussain, Fazal. "Gynecologic Tumor Markers." eMedicine. Mar. 30, 2009. <http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/269839-overview>.
Last Editorial Review: 10/22/2009
There are probably better references for the CA-125 test but think above gives some generally
held information. The 3% sounds like it is referring to a screening use.
Linda,
I am praying for you and hopefully it is nothing. It sounds like your doctors are just being cautious. My best friend just yesterday was saying that a mutual friend of ours says that a headache is never just a headache anymore once you have had cancer. I think this is so true. Just try to keep busy and try to think about other things and just pray for calm.
Love,
Janet
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All I can add is that I definitely know how you feel. We think we can put all this behind us, but when a test or exam shows something that might need investigating further, it just sends us to that anxious place again. Linda, it seems like you have a great medical team on top of it and looking at every possibility. I have a good feeling for you that it will turn out alright. I just wish you didn't have to go through this anxiety again. We're here for you!
Hugs,
Donna
DX IDC TNBC 6/09 age 49, Stage 1,Grade 3, 1.5cm,0/5Nodes,KI-67 48%,BRCA-,6/09bi-mx, recon, T/C X4(9/09) 11/10 Recur IM node, Gem,Carb,Iniparib 12/10,MRI NED 2/11,IMRT Radsx40,CT NED11/13,MRI NED3/15
Dear Linda,
I am so sorry you are having to go through this anxious time concerning pelvic fluid. I don't have a situation to compare with, but please know that I am praying for you. Hopefully nothing more than a harmless cyst. I know the waiting has to be difficult.
Dear Genie,
I am also sorry you are having to go through anxiety about your upcoming blood re-check. Praying it is something simple, like cholesterol or triglicerides and nothing to do with cancer.
God Bless,
Lillie
Dx 6/06 age 65,IDC-TNBC Stage IIb,Gr3,2cm,BRCA- 6/06 L/Mast/w/SNB,1of3 Nodes+ 6/06 Axl. 9 nodes- 8/8 thru 11/15 Chemo (Clin-Trial) DD A/Cx4 -- DD taxol+gemzar x4 No Rads. No RECON - 11/2018-12 yrs NED
I am sorry you are going through this I know I have had my scares,but my onc told me as well as all of my other doctors any little change in anything they will check it out further because of my history. I am sure your doctor is bienging very cautious which is a good thing. I will be praying for you.
Thank you, one and all, for each of your responses. I knew that they would pull me in and put me back on the straight and narrow. I don't know what I would ever do without all of you, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
My gyno realizes that the CA-125 is not terribly dependable, but since I've never had the need for one, she just wants to cover every base. It is her that wants to do as much as possible and leave no stone unturned. Keeps assuring me that with no cysts or "masses" there, I should try not to worry, but the cancer-scarred part of my mind keeps reminding me just how sneaky and hidden ovarian cancer can be.
I love you all and thank you all for being here for me. Amazing to know that faces I have never met, and hands I have never held, could shelter me from my own fear better than those that I have loved all my lives. I know they are scared too, but they just can't grasp why a cancer-patient can't just push it away and not worry. Only another sister or brother can truly understand - and boy, am I sure grateful that I have each of you to come to!
Love,
Linda
Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg
4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33
I'll be hoping for all the best for you too with your blood tests.
hugs,
L.
Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg
4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33
I loved reading your last paragraph. I think you put into words something most of us agree with and you said it beautifully! I pray you have good results with all your tests and that we continue to walk together into 2012 with great faith and high hopes for good things for all of us!
Traci
dx 5/25/07, Stage 2A,TNGr3 DD 4 AC,4 Taxol 32 rads BRCA 1&2 (-) 7/11 mets to lung; Too many lines of chemo to list! The saga continues but only GOD numbers my days!
I love you all and thank you all for being here for me. Amazing to know that faces I have never met, and hands I have never held, could shelter me from my own fear better than those that I have loved all my lives. I know they are scared too, but they just can't grasp why a cancer-patient can't just push it away and not worry. Only another sister or brother can truly understand - and boy, am I sure grateful that I have each of you to come to!
Love,
Linda
Linda,
You so eloquently capture the essence of this forum and community. We can always turn to each other as we truly understand the journey we're on. At least we don't have to travel this road by ourselves. We have each other!
Love,
Donna
DX IDC TNBC 6/09 age 49, Stage 1,Grade 3, 1.5cm,0/5Nodes,KI-67 48%,BRCA-,6/09bi-mx, recon, T/C X4(9/09) 11/10 Recur IM node, Gem,Carb,Iniparib 12/10,MRI NED 2/11,IMRT Radsx40,CT NED11/13,MRI NED3/15
Linda, a couple of thoughts. Don't forget when you get the new bloodwork that you don't really have a baseline on it because it will be the first, so no matter what it is, it's not as reliable as if you had several previous ones to do tracking with...
Also, my doc and I decided to do CEA's at each test and I would suggest you talk that over with your doc to see if it should be added.
And last, don't forget that the jitters are also telling you a story that you can have some control over. Anxiety is something we live with now and it's a good thing to start training yourself to recognize the symptoms and then do something about it as anxiety and stress are like candy to a body prone to cancer (yeah, that's my personal belief, please don't shoot me!) But since I take a regular anxiety med and then have a 'panic attack' bottle at the back of my drawer just knowing it's there gives me a certain amount of control that really makes a difference.
Double lastly, add an extra 1/2 hour or more to your regular exercise so that every time you feel the jitters coming on, take a quick walk around the block, do some stretches, jumping jacks... whatever you have to to use up that raw energy.
Awww, Again, thanks so much my dear sisters. Mainy, I too have always kept a supply of Ativan on hand just for these moments, but the only time I have needed any was when Tiffany passed away. I have been taking a half in the morn and a half at night. It does quell this dang anxiety a bit, thank God. And I do keep in mind that this will be my first CA-125, and will remind the gyno also, which actually, she is also aware of. My regular onc (who I see on the 20th) always does a CEA also, but my last one was in late September and was fine, as was the CA -27-29, but as we all know, this monster can change in a heartbeat. I'm hanging on to "no symptoms, no cysts, no masses" - just can't let go of that small amount of fluid thats in the pelvis floating around. It would be normal if I wasn't 10 yrs. postmenopausal. Oh well, no way around it, just got to put on my big girl panties and go through it. Acutally a bit embarrassed to even be posting this with all that so many of our other sisters are presently going through, or have gone through. I don't even have any results yet, and I'm burying myself. Geez, sometimes I think the anxiety this disease produces in us is worse or just as bad as the disease itself. Yuk.
Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg
4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33
Linda and Genie: We are all glad you have a place to come and share, whether it be anxiety or something else. Prayers for both of you for "nothing to worry about" and decreased worry!!
Just stopping by to let you know I am still breathing (I think!). Went for the CA-125 today, and, of course, my wonderful gyno is trying her very best to assure me that this doesn't have to mean it's cancer. Since she can't, nor can google, apparently, tell me what the heck else it could be, I am having difficulty feeling reassured. I do have an appt. on Friday, the 6th, with an excellent and highly esteemed (I hope) gyno-onc who heads up the ovarian cancer program at the hospital I have had all my cancer stuff done at (Northside Hospital, Atl., GA), and which is one of the 30 countrywide hospitals recognized by the NCI as a community cancer center. He also heads up and founded the Ovarian research center at GA Tech - long story short, his credentials are very impressive. He's 73, so I'm taking that as being very experienced and learned, and not just old (ha! listen to me, like I'm some spring chicken). He will meet with me and go over every sonargram and transvaginal and the two MRI's since July to the present time, and hopefully will come to some conclusion as to what our next step will be during this appt.
Will let you know what I find out, and again, thank you all so very much for helping me through this with all your support.
Hugs,
Linda
Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg
4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33
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