Chemo first or Surgery?

I HAD NEOADJUVANT CHEMO W/ AVASTIN AND WHEN THEY DID THE ULTRASOUND/SONOGRAM . .  CAN'T REMEMBER WHICH IT WAS . .  MY TUMOR WAS GONE. THERE WAS JUST A BLACK SPOT WHERE THE TUMOR HAD BEEN. I GOT SO FREAKED OUT THAT I WANTED TO BACK OUT OF DBL MASECTOMY-- I MADE THE NURSE GET MY ORIGINAL PICTURES TO PROVE THAT I EVEN HAD A TUMOR TO BEGIN WITH-- I THOUGHT THEY HAD MIXED UP MY RECORDS AND I'D NEVER EVEN NEEDED THE CHEMO. TALK ABOUT DENIAL!!  NEEDLESS TO SAY, SHE SHOWED MY BOTH SLIDES, SIDE BY SIDE, AND AFTER 2 XANAX, I ACCEPTED THE INEVITABLE.  THE MAST. REALLY WASN'T SO BAD AFTER THE CHEMO. I HAD LOTS OF JOINT PAIN AND WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 2 WEEKS WITH NEUTROPENIA.  THEY HAVE A $2,000.00 SHOT TO PREVENT THAT --NEULASTA-- ASK FOR IT!  I ALMOST DIED IN THE HOSPITAL--MY WHITE CELL COUNT WAS 1. INSURANCE MAY NOT COVER IT IF IT US USED AS A PREVENTIVE MEASURE, BUT I SURE GOT IT EVERY TIME I WENT TO CHEMO AFTER THAT.  GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS.  PRISSY IN ARKANSAS.

Dear prissy,

Edited by Nancy - Jun 01 2009 at 2:04pm

I did not want rads because I was told that it makes recon "more complicated" . I had the dbl mas because I felt it was the safest way to go. I had a "skin sparing" mas. 

Since I had the TIA (transient ischemic attack) in Feb. and had to be put on bpressure med, plavix, and crestor and they found blockage in my L carotid artery, my plastic surgeon is hesitant to do recon unless my cardiologist approves it.  So, . . .  who knows ?

I am just frustrated at BREAST CANCER!!!!!!!!  PERIOD!!

prissy