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Terri 
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 Posted: Dec 30 2010 at 11:34pm |
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I held it together all day at work until one of my coworkers asked if I was OK. I broke down in tears of sadness and anger. I hate this disease! Caryn was too young and wonderful to leave this earth. It`s so unfair that we have to lose someone so incredible when it seems evil people walk around unscathed. I know I shouldn`t feel that way but I do. And as Linda commented, it also makes me worry about my own mortality.
I know our Caryn and my friend Mary Ellen (who died from BC 2 years ago Dec 17th) and so many others are "with the angels" as Steve said. But I miss them here on earth.
God Bless all 3 Steves and Caryn`s family.
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IDC DX 8/17/07 (age 41)
Stage 1 Grade 1-2, 1.35 cm 2 nodes neg, Lumpectomy 10/07 Chemo: FEC 100 x 6, 35 rads BRCA 1/2 NEG PET/CT & Brain CT Nov 09 Brain MRI Aug 2012 NED |
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Autumn10182001
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 9:19am |
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I too will miss my friend and am in a funk. The first time I met Caryn was right after her recurrence dx.. she was determined.. and she stayed determined. She loved life and life was not fair to her, nor Steve. Steve is a wonderful man, and their love was very special. It has obviously made me think more about my own mortality, but that has been at the top of my list for a couple of months now. I don't want to deter this topic from Caryn, but with the pain in my shoulder and arm, dreams that the cancer has spread to my kidneys and brain.. and my upcoming scans in 7 days (results on the 11th), all I can think of is that I too am losing this battle.. and I don't even know if I have any problem right now.. for that reason as well, I hate this disease. Caryn didn't let it steal her life.. and I am turning my life over to it... before I even know if I have it again. I wish I could gather Caryn's spirit and fight and determination... she tried so hard to teach me ... for that my friend, I thank you.. for your friendship I am honored... rest in peace my friend.
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DX2/99 Stg I,ER+PR+ Chemo lumpectomy - Neg nodes,rads, tamox,femara. DX4/09, Stg IIB /III, TNBC IDC, Grade III, 2.5CM, mastectomy. 4AC DD,12 wkly taxol,BRAC1&2Neg, Right Mast 11/25/09
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LRM216
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 10:12am |
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Autumn:
Please remember - you are stronger than you think you are. You have endured much and came through it all. The fear you have is universal amongst all of us. None of us want this beast of a disease to enter our lives again, but some of us will not have that choice, no matter what we do. Never will any of us ever again be able to live without the fear of it being "somewhere" in us - at any time.
What each and every one of us DOES have - is the ability to live each day one day at a time and enjoy it to the fullest. Not a person on the face of this earth, not even a newborn babe - is guaranteed more than today. Tomorrow is promised to no one.
Do not let today be lost to fear of the unknown. Enjoy today and all those around you, Autumn. We are all afraid, but there is always strength in numbers, and we are many.
Love,
Linda
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Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg 4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33 |
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sue
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 10:29am |
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Sincere sympathy to Steve and family and friends. I offer these words of consolation, author unknown.
"Be not burdened with times of sorrow; I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow." "My life's been full, I've savored much, good friends, good times, a loved one's touch." "Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, don't lengthen it now with undue grief." "Lift up your heart and share with me - God wanted me now, God set me free." With love, Sue
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Dx 7/10, age 53. TNBC left breast, stage I, grade 3, IDC 0.5 cm, DCI 2.5 cm, 0/8 lymph nodes neg. BRCA-. T/C x4 finished 2/09/11, rads x34 finished 4/21/11.
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LRM216
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 10:36am |
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Beautiful poem, Sue. So appropriate too. |
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Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg 4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33 |
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123Donna
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 11:03am |
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I have been saddened beyond belief and in a funk also. My mood seems to be a little better today. We all knew Caryn's time was short but we were all hoping she'd somehow prove us wrong and pull through it again like she'd done before.
We all need to take from Caryn's journey as a way to live our lives. Be honest, courageous, live with humor, enjoy life and fight with all your might to the bitter end. I miss her. Donna |
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DX IDC TNBC 6/09 age 49, Stage 1,Grade 3, 1.5cm,0/5Nodes,KI-67 48%,BRCA-,6/09bi-mx, recon, T/C X4(9/09)
11/10 Recur IM node, Gem,Carb,Iniparib 12/10,MRI NED 2/11,IMRT Radsx40,CT NED11/13,MRI NED3/15 |
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trip2
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 11:45am |
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I am so heartbroken to read about Caryn. I too had that feeling or wanted to hold onto that feeling that somehow, some way she would once again conquer as she had in the past.
I have known Caryn for a few years, from different forums and always found her to be someone to look up to to, to admire. I too miss her very much.
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Stage 1 2007 BRCA 1+ |
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HappyGoLucky
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 12:24pm |
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Caryn was a warrior and her story is an inspiration! I am sooo sad .
I found one her webpages with a photo of her and Steve relating her journey. She is an inspiration.
sleep in heavenly peace Caryn, you have not died in vain.
Love,
Karen Edited by HappyGoLucky - Dec 31 2010 at 1:23pm |
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123Donna
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 12:28pm |
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Karen,
Thanks for the link. Caryn and Steve looked so happy. I love the picture. Donna |
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DX IDC TNBC 6/09 age 49, Stage 1,Grade 3, 1.5cm,0/5Nodes,KI-67 48%,BRCA-,6/09bi-mx, recon, T/C X4(9/09)
11/10 Recur IM node, Gem,Carb,Iniparib 12/10,MRI NED 2/11,IMRT Radsx40,CT NED11/13,MRI NED3/15 |
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HappyGoLucky
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 12:30pm |
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You're welcome Donna.
I love that shot, but I am glad she is not suffering anymore.
Love,
Karen
Edited by HappyGoLucky - Dec 31 2010 at 12:33pm |
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trip2
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 12:40pm |
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Thank you, what a lovely picture of them both..
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Autumn10182001
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 1:11pm |
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I love that picture of Caryn and Steve...
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DX2/99 Stg I,ER+PR+ Chemo lumpectomy - Neg nodes,rads, tamox,femara. DX4/09, Stg IIB /III, TNBC IDC, Grade III, 2.5CM, mastectomy. 4AC DD,12 wkly taxol,BRAC1&2Neg, Right Mast 11/25/09
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LRM216
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 5:55pm |
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That was wonderful. I had never read or seen it before your posting. Thank you so much for sharing it.
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Linda - diagnosed at age 62
Diag 2/23/09 IDC 1.2 cent. IDC right breast,Stage 1, Grade 3,0/1 nodes - Triple Neg 4 DD AC every two weeks, 1 Dd Taxol, then 3 Taxotere every three weeks - rads x 33 |
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HappyGoLucky
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 6:04pm |
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You're welcome I came across it by accident.
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abcmom
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 8:34pm |
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I never got to know Caryn personally but followed her journey on this website. I feel so grateful, thankful, honored and blessed to have know of her and what a wonderful person she was and wanted to express my sincerest condolences to her family and I am glad she is with the angels now.
Keri
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Diag 11/06/09 @ 40; Diag w/ TNBC Stage IIA, Grade 3 12/01/09 Node Neg. Dble MX with Recon 12/09 (twice)
Chemo 1/13/10 Chemo done 4/22/10 More recon surg 07/10, PET/CT Scan clear 07/10 NED 07/11 |
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 9:14pm |
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Steve-o, I hope you made it out of bed and are now in better spirits.
Donna, and Terri, and everyone else feeling sad - I'm blowing you a kiss. After spending nearly all day in bed with a cold and some pretty bluesy blues, I'm ready to get up and par-T. 2011 here we come. (If Caryn could, you know she'd be boogieing with the best) love, d |
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DX 2/08@43 stg II IDC; gr2,0 nodes. Neoadj chemo, first ACx2 (fail) then CarboTaxotereX6(better). Lump, Rads done 11/08; Clodronate. False alarm queen: PetCT lung & TM marker. NED. PBM w/recon 9/10.
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kikidan
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Posted: Dec 31 2010 at 10:29pm |
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I am so devastated that Caryn has passed. I am so truly sorry we lost such a wonderful beacon of hope. So crushing and defeating for all of us. So sad that such a a bright light has left us. At least she is now our bright star in the sky looking over us.
And I am really freaking angry.
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CiGi
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Posted: Jan 02 2011 at 10:11pm |
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So sad we lost a great inspiration. Caryn was such a caring person. I did not get the opportunity to meet her. I've read her posts and she was so lively and a loving person. She's at peace now and looking over us and her family and friends. Karen - thanks for the link. Life is so unfair and I'm so really sad and wish that there will be a cure soon, so many great wonderful people leaving this earth way too soon. Peace Caryn, we'll miss you.
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Age 40, 4/28/10 lumpectomy (3 cm) TNBC Grade 3 Stage 2 0/3 nodes, TAC 6x 3 week cycles start 6/15 finish 9/27, 33 rounds rads 11/22. BRCA1 & 2 neg. Lymphedema rt hand 8/14. Joint pain Dec 2010.
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Posted: Jan 02 2011 at 10:45pm |
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I came back home today after being away for two weeks and found so many bad news around here. I love this site and all the support I receive from it but it is also hard sometimes to face the losses of so many wonderful human beings to this horrible disease...
May you rest in peace Caryn. Thanks for being an amazing human being and an inspiration for all of us. To Steve and the rest of Caryn's family my deepest condolences. |
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Natalia, 38 years
Dx TNBC 10/22/08, BRCA1+ Double Mx 11/20/08 with Recon. 3/37 nodes Rads 7 weeks done 8/09 ACx4 every 2 weeks and Tx12 weeks. Avastin e/3 weeksx10 (Clinical Trial) Done Dec/09 |
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Terri
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Posted: Jan 03 2011 at 11:05am |
God Bless you Steve and peace and rest to our dear friend Caryn...At the End of a Sad Day......Posted 11 pm Sunday by DH Steve:
...I sit here in bed and I think of the wonderful things people had to say about my beloved wife and I smile for the time we shared, and I weep for the time we will never have. Although I saw with my own eyes that she was in the coffin, I know that she was above us and all around us, surrounding us with her gentle spirit...giving us all the will to continue on...to honor and to cherish her memory. And I have to believe that same spirit was, in part, if not wholly, responsible for making it rain as we turned into the cemetery, and for making it stop as we approached the grave site---just another reminder of who was still in charge :) In the days, weeks, months and years to come, we will feel her in the sweet breezes, we will hear her in a favorite melody, we will think of her in passing conversation, in an overheard phrase...and we will know that she will never truly leave us. My life has been blessed as never before and I am truly thankful for my nine years - ups and downs- with such a courageous, sweet, warm, loving, intelligent woman of valor. Rest in Peace my love, my friend, my soul mate, my cherished partner Caryn H Rosenberg 28 Jun 1960--29 Dec 2010 Edited by Terri - Jan 03 2011 at 11:08am |
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IDC DX 8/17/07 (age 41)
Stage 1 Grade 1-2, 1.35 cm 2 nodes neg, Lumpectomy 10/07 Chemo: FEC 100 x 6, 35 rads BRCA 1/2 NEG PET/CT & Brain CT Nov 09 Brain MRI Aug 2012 NED |
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