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Joined: Nov 30 2012 Location: ILLINOIS Status: Online Points: 267 Post Options Thanks(0) Quote Reply Posted: 4 hours 22 minutes ago at 10:38am my message to cancer.......ive sat in the doctors off so many times, and read the poster that reads, i have cancer, cancer dosent have me,each time i have read it ive thought, your wrong it has me.. .. when i wake in the middle of the night, and the scary thoughts come to my mind. it has me, when i look at my faimly with fear of what will they do, it has me it rears it ugly head many times through out my day ,, yes it has me i do have days of enjoyment dont get me wrong, sometimes , i surprise myself when long periods go by and i see a glimps of myself, but its there , its like the old friend we dont want anymore ,but they are around because you told them to many little secrets, you dont want told , or the ugly tatoo you got when you were young , it is always there, the last thing i want to do is give cancer any credit, but i must , because it has made me a more caring person, i dont sweat the small stuff, and do do stop and smell many roses now, but someday damn it i will look at that poster and say no no you dont have me, or any one else, and i pray it will come in my life time or at least my kids and grandkids, because none of us should ever have to look in you ugly face Beck
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Dx 6/06 age 65,IDC-TNBC Stage IIb,Gr3,2cm,BRCA- 6/06 L/Mast/w/SNB,1of3 Nodes+ 6/06 Axl. 9 nodes- 8/8 thru 11/15 Chemo (Clin-Trial) DD A/Cx4 -- DD taxol+gemzar x4 No Rads. No RECON - 11/2018-12 yrs NED
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